some reasons why

Some reasons why:

#1: She don't want me

#2: She thought I was perfect, but I was just being me. She left the moment she realized I'm not perfect

#3: Her lifestyle. I really don't want to do the things she do. I just want to spend time together.

- I cannot take more nights where I stay up, just to make sure she home safe. that time she drink until puke also never tell me until day later? she just don't give me the reassurance that I shouldn't worry about her? in a sense its kinda selfish? I don't know.

#4: Her whole attitude towards not being sad if you feel you cannot change anything. There is nothing wrong with being sad when I'm sad. Instead of pretending its not there, arbo address the issue?

#5: Even thou she text me alot of things about wanting and missing, but sometimes it feels like i am the one who wants to meet? Like when she was contemplating going clubbing or meeting me? I hated feeling like a side plan.

#6: She didn't understand that certain things bother me. She more bochup than me. Feel like i easily hurt or sensitive. I need someone to be on same page as me? not be suprised when i said i hurt. Like seriously, that night at bishan park, cannot see the things you saying are super hurtful meh?

#7: No matter what she said, what articles she share with me, what promises were made......she still left

Nine

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I will not see who sees my igstories. I will just post and forget.
I will not see their igstories also. It just messes with me when I see her so happy. Its fucked up for me to think that, but it does affect me.


I think, I'm done. Keep thinking like the tarot card reading predictions, is abit setting myself up for failure. its easier to just accept the fact that she doesn't care anymore and the whole thing will be forgotten soon. Only left me here, its time for me to say fuckit too.

Don't think anyone cares also, everybody don't think much when its the guy y'know? Everybody will help you if you get hurt, nobody helping me when its me. I mean, got la, the few dependable, got listen to me.

I think, just wish you safe flight, then thats it. I won't bother you anymore.

Nine

I'm not going to look at your facebook.
I'm not going to look at your instagram last login and last liked photos.
I'm not going to post stupid movie moments that shows how I feel about this whole thing.

I'm going to try and post more igstories and be back to normal.

I'm going to try and not see who sees my igstories. Don't care.


Later look at your fb, then is posts about how you already dun wan bf, or whatever la. Will be along the lines of how you're better off without me. Same with your ig. Why do I want to do that to myself? Might as well don't see. Maybe can pretend you still give a shit about the whole thing.